with all due respect, what are you talking about? Not liking a performance is not irrational, whether most people agree with you or not. Do you love some performances? If so, then you can hate others. That's how it works.
Now regarding wanting to stick around in the face of a consensus that is negative toward your performance, sure, we can all understand why someone would want to bail as soon as they can. Anyone who has never worked on something that they wanted to escape has not worked much.
But calling it irrational hate diminishes your own credibility. Beanie will be fine. She has the luxury of being able to bail; not everyone does.